Realizing Redemption

Oh, to go back to that life without worry,
Going day by day without a fear.
Not knowing what it feels like to have the weight of the world to carry.
I know of a place where I can leave all that fear behind.
But I'm too scared to leave it there.
You see, this... this is what makes me mine.
This is what makes me into the person I see
When I look in the mirror every day.
I wish to wash these scars away
To brush the pain off
To but this bottle down and know I'm okay.
But I can't stop.
I don't stop until I'm broken down,
Forced to stop, to take a look at what I have become.
I cry out to God, "Oh, please forgive me!
I know the things I do wrong,
Please don't hold them against me.
I'm trapped inside, I can't get out
I'm locked in without a key.
Come down and help me find the me that's buried deep underneath."

He brought me back to when I was young
When I could trust for no reason,
And showed me that's the way to go
If I'm going to keep believing.

I need to search deep down inside
Without a bottle, without a flame
Just to find the perfect face
That matches with my name.

I need to let go of what makes me
Break the chains that bind me,
The person who I think I am but wasn't made to be.
To go back to the days
Where all I did was trust
So I don't find myself
Buried deep in my own dust.