Drowning Peacefully

One of my favorite things about Maine is the rocks on the coast. When I hike along them, I'm reminded of how small I really am. If a huge wave came up and smashed against those rocks, I would be powerless to fight against them.

A song that I really like by Tenth Avenue North has a sone called Lovesick. One of the lines in it is, "I'm caught in Your current but I'm sinking, drowning peacefully."

I never understood that. Until now. Following God is a lot like allowing those waves to crash down over you. We are powerless to fight against Him and His power. But when we just face that fact, our lives will find peace in Him rather than violence in this world.

I'm still trying to figure this whole God thing out. And i think I always will be trying to figure it out. One thing I have always known is to let God have the power, because I can't do it on my own. I need to learn that every day, but at least I'm learning.

Mirror Images

We are made in God's image. And that's exactly what we are, an image if God. That's why we can never be perfect. 

Think about your reflection in the mirror... You're looking at a mirror image of yourself, but in the mirror everything is opposite. That's a flaw. You can't see yourself perfectly. 

When people look at the body of Christ, it  should be like they're seeing Jesus in the mirror. We are flawed, imperfect, "backwards" people, but even through all of that, when non-believers look at us, they should see Christ. 

We can never be perfect, but we can become more like Jesus every day, because he's  that good to us. 

The Domino Effect

            There was a time in my life where everything was simpler. I could find joy hunting for frogs in the stream in my front yard, or staring up into the sky watching the clouds float by. Over time, I have had experiences that have made me grow up, leaving me incapable of thinking that way. As hard as I try, I just can’t get back that child-minded view of being able to imagine a whole new life out of nothing. That’s what is so beautiful about children. They see a world of opportunity at their fingertips. As we grow older, chains of responsibility and impossibility replace the opportunities we saw as children. We see that what our dreams once were are no longer possible because they have always been shut down.

            I try to see the world for what it is. It is a lot of broken people doing things broken people do. It is broken people looking for something to live for. There is hope and there is goodness in our world, but it is not as obvious as it once was. I like to think I’m looking realistically at what the world has to offer, but maybe I’m just growing up.

Maybe that’s why God wants us to approach him as children, because children see the world differently. They see it for what it could be rather than what it is. 

Bound

Seeing birds fly freely

Makes me feel stuck

To these chains inside my heart.

It makes me wonder

What it would be like 

To be free. 

Another Chapter

my whole life they've been saying

"find your own truth,

live your own life." 

that's when I realized,

you can't find truth

If you're looking in the wrong place.